I purged dinner, I still feel like I've eaten loads even though I've purged everything I've eaten none of which has been a binge.
It is only 7:30pm but I feel ready to go to sleep.
I don't know if I have college tomorrow or not, it depends on the snow...I really want to have college, even though I'm not prepared for the mock exam or practical exam. Going to college is better than staying at home and having to eat.
I found out all the accommodation at Nottingham University is catered. Meaning for 19 meals a week I'm meant to eat in the canteen. There is no way on earth I could do that, however I think you have to pay a fixed rate whether you eat the food or not. How did I not realise this when I applied? I still love the university and it has given me a really good offer. I'm going to visit there in February to meet the disability services and see the School. My mum is probably going to come with me but I really don't want her to be in the meetings because I want to be honest with them about the support I'll need and I can't do that in front of my mother. At least I don't think I could be, I dunno.
Sorry for blogging so much, I must be clogging up your Dashboards.
I threw up blood earlier.