There is a thread on PT about movies about anorexia etc. Speak isn't about eating disorders, really it is about rape.
It just made me cry and now I have all these emotions spilling over and I want to cry, to be sick, to cut.
What made me cry the most is when at the end she tells her mum all about what happens.
My mum *knows* I was raped at 9 and 15 but I don't think she believes me. I lied about what happened when I was 9 for a long time and now I think she thinks I'm lying. I feel awful, I feel so sad. I want to cut off all my hair, rip myself to shreds, starve away, disappear. I want to show my pain yet I want to hide it all away. I don't know how I feel.
It is steak, chips and salad for dinner. :'(
I'm so sad I've damaged my oesophagus, I get terrible pain when and after I eat.