I just want to eat and eat and eat and EAT. I've already had four biscuits (280) and a kitkat (107) but I want more and more and more and I want my family to go out, go away, so I can eat and eat and eat some more. Even though I want to lose weight, even though I hate how the food feels in my mouth, even though I haven't purged this year. I want twiglets, cinnamon grahams, chocolate, cheese, milk, ice cream. I would have to walk the five minutes to the shop to get those things though, I need to buy phone credit too however I'm too scared to walk round the corner and through the underpass. Not because there is anything to be scared of. Just because whilst I can travel hundreds of miles across the country I find walking around the corner terrifying. For no reason.
Once my parents go out I can have a salad without them moaning "that isn't proper food" and I'll watch Black Swan which my brother's (half american) girlfriend sent him. And hopefully the cravings will subside and I can maybe still stay under 500 calories?
I'm kind of ignoring the Honest Scrap Award at the moment...sorry. I'll do it if anyone thinks it is rude not to. I don't have a desk or a handbag, I don't have a secret box, and I don't have that many secrets that you haven't already been honoured with.