I've lost all sense of organisation.
My room is a mess
I'm eating, all the time, too much, random mixtures.
I haven't done any studying in over 2 weeks.
I'm losing my grip and I need it back but I don't know how. All I want to do is eat and eat and eat. It isn't like I'm binging, not like I used to. I'm just eating.
I need to sort it out.
I am thinking about buying a exercise bike from ebay...however...I will need to go any pick it up, which requires my Dad driving me and I will have to tell my parents I'm setting up an exercise bike in my room and..eurgh :/ I might just book my gym induction?
I’m begging you; control me now.
Tell me what to do, and how.
Make me work and make me slave
Teach me, sir, how to behave.
I want to feel you push and shove
No more feelings, no more love.
Only anger, lust and hate,
This is my life – this is my fate.
No more choices, no more say,
No more letting people down.
As from today – in you I drown.
Stereotypical poem of these sorts of blogs, I didn't write it, but I understand it. In an odd sort of way. It is so much simpler when rules control you. I mean what would happen if tomorrow all laws were dissolved?