I have a cold which is annoying, I hope it is gone tomorrow but I'm going swimming anyway.
I'm in a way better mood today because I stuck to my plan :)
2x coffee= 40
tomato sauce= 40
Then I was bad and had an aero chocolate lamb= 145
But that is still 502 then later I'll have an ice lolly which is 18 calories = 520 for the day.
College just seemed to go on and on and on today, I think because we were just going through practice exams in both classes and it dragged a bit. My first exam is next Monday.
I forgot to ask my psych for another prescription last Friday so now I need to call her to get her to write me another one because I only have enough meds until Sunday. I wish I could just email her, it would be so much easier.
I took laxatives today, first time in a long time. I took the recommended dose. I'm not 'abusing' them...I'm just a bit worried I'll get pissed off and take the rest of the box.
I pretty much only bought them because they were way cheaper than they used to be when I took them a lot.
Tomorrow I have my driving lesson then I'm going to the gym, then swimming. I also need to do revision for my mock exam on Wednesday :S I've only revised about 60% of the stuff that could be on the paper so far. And...I say 'revised' I mean I wrote notes out, I don't actually KNOW much of it.
I'm missing PT a bit...kinda. I miss being able to have those crazy ED chats where you talk about how weird you are. Like if you meet up with an ED person and you're both looking at the labels on packets and you stop and laugh at each other. I miss that.
I realised, what I really want, need, is to be a rebellious teenager. I want someone to push and push and push the boundaries with, I want to have screaming rows with them and them still be there. I guess I've always known that my parents, at least my mum, can't take that. That is why I went to hospital. But in hospital I only got as far as toddler tantrums (yes first toddler tantrum aged 15 and a half). I haven't done the teenage bit yet. But I'm not a child anymore, I won't even be a teenager anymore in 15 months.
It is too late.