All I talk about is exams and food. I'm so sorry if you text me as well as read (basically Lissy) because that is all you hear about...
There are other stuff going round my head but I just don't know what to say...
I'm not bothered what my sexuality is, I don't think you can categorise people as simply as Gay, Bi, Straight. I think it is more of a spectrum. I'm not sure where I am on that spectrum. I've been thinking for a few years that I'm somewhere between Bi and Straight. But it is all confused because I want to be close to just someone, and it is simpler if it is a man and safer if it is a woman.
Essentially I don't think I'm ready for any sort of relationship but I kind of want something just to happen at university. I don't know if I'm capable of loving someone, I know I love my little brother but everyone else IN THE WORLD I feel could hurt me, I can't 100% trust them and that means I can't love them. I do care about a lot of people though.
But then I have dreams, and I'm not talking about crazy teenage wet dreams (or maybe I am, I don't know what other people dream about). But I was with a girl I know and we kissed and fooled around but then these two guys moved into the flat below us and then I was with one of them.
I wish everything that has happened hadn't happened so I could have normal relationships.
I might delete this, I might not. I don't know.