I'm not packed, I still need to buy things I forgot today, I need to magic into a real grown up...
I'm so so so scared. I had a nice morning but then things went downhill. I've been awake since 5am (I couldn't sleep) so I got tired and my mum was tired and she snapped at me and I got upset so I ate a bag of crisps so then I decided calories didn't matter today because I'd already ruined it and had a cookie and a muffin and then I ate dinner and then made microwave cake with my little brother. So...1400-1600 calories (but mainly unhealthy stuff).
I know I'm being such a hypocrite at the moment. Things were okay and now I'm just so stressed out about university that I'm falling into all the holes I'd previously climbed out of.
I went to college earlier to see my friend and my old tutor :) it was really nice.
I got an email from my university tutor :S there are 7 people (including me) in my tutorial group, we have a meeting on Monday at 2pm...I have to find his office :/ eek! His research specialism is NOT something I'm interested in...his specialism being the psychology of driving (and yes, I mean driving a car). Where they look at junctions etc.
Ohh wow...having said that a large proportion of his research seems to be on ASD (autistic spectrum disorders) which I have so...this could be good or bad. As you may have realised I'm not sterotypically Autistic or Aspergic. So...hopefully he doesn't try and...basically I want him to be my tutor not my psychologist.
Looking at all the tutors and what they have written papers on...i just want to go and talk to them! I hope the desire to learn will get me through the fear.
Take care ALL OF YOU xxx