Hey, I think I had a pretty nice day? I know it seems odd not to know but everything is so new nothing feels REALLY enjoyable.
We had brunch but the only thing I could eat was cereal with soya milk and a coffee. Everyone else was having pastries but they have dairy in them - pretty awesome excuse to avoid them!
Then I went into town with 3 girls and we went shopping and wandering, 2 of them left earlier and then K and I wandered for longer and came back after getting my starbucks hit ;)
I got a pair of corduroy shorts in Primark (super cheap clothes shop) but I might dye them a different colour as they are an odd brown at the moment. I also got a little embroidered waistcoat (vest) for £2 in the sale!!!
We came back and it was dinner time (it is 5-6pm on weekends, super early). It was a massive roast and no one cleared their plates so I didn't look too odd.
Then we went to one of the other halls for some music but it was mainly awful so we came back and I watched some a film with the others but now I'm blogging. During the film I had 450cals of doritos and 5 custard creams (300 calories).
I'm looking forward to getting into a routine tomorrow when lectures start properly and the days are fuller. Also I start swimming on Tuesday...I really hope I like it :S I've never done proper team training before.
At 11.10am tomorrow I have a 20 minute doctors appointment so double the normal length for a GP appointment. I'm quite nervous...I need to remember to take my discharge paper work with me from my psych. I don't know what to say to her. I feel huge and I've binged and not purged and I keep seeing anorexics on campus (so far 3 really severe) and I just am a normal weight. I think I might even be more than I was last Wednesday when I filled in the form about my weight. I don't know what to do.
Oh and I've arranged to meet people for breakfast at 8am so that was dumb because then I'll kinda have to eat before possibly being weighed. I think I'll just say I'm feeling nervous-sick before my first lecture.
Oh god. What if they say I can't see anyone? Like not for anything??? Shit I hate this.
Sorry this is not a happy blog, I AM happy here, I love the people I live with, it could be so much worse and I'm really lucky that we have nice guys living with us and non bitchy girls. TBH I'm just lucky to have a place at a uni.
It'll be okay. It'll be okay.