I have an Eating Disorder Service assessment on Wednesday 14th December... I didn't think I would be seeing them until January or February ahhh.
I don't know what to wear to not look fat and disgusting and just be turned away at the door. (Over dramatic I know).
It is with a psychologist who specialises in EDs, she is called Joanne. I'm not ready for this, I'm too fat and ahh.
It is also at 9.15am, I'm going to walk which means I need to leave at 7.50am- 8am. It isn't that I think the walking will make me lose weight but I will feel like I'm allowed to be there. I'm also going to avoid solid food...to be fair I'm doing that anyway but I now feel an increased urgency. i
I don't even know if I'm going to be weighed, as far as I know it is just the psychologist and me and they aren't concerned about my weight but fuck.
At the moment the only thing I feel I could wear are my tracksuit bottoms.
I have a lab class at 2pm. I don't want to go, really don't want to go. I hate the room, the lack of natural light, the whirring of the freezing air conditioning and 55 computers.