On Friday/ Sunday it is 10 years since I was first attacked. It happened on the 3rd which is Friday but it happened on a Sunday so I more count the Sunday. SO basically the whole weekend is going to be shit. I'm already having more vivid memories. I don't know if they count as flashbacks or not because I'm not completely out of it when it happens. I can be sat in a lecture, I can remember it and that means feeling it but I can still hear the lecture and see the lecture.
Anyway...how not to end up in hospital this weekend? Or do I want to go to hospital just so I can lose it, but what if I cry and remember and do stuff and they then try and lock me up? I don't know.
I've emailed Claire asking her what to do.