Claire isn't replying to my emails, I'm not seeing her until Friday.
- I HAVE to go to all my lectures tomorrow, and walk, and finish my lab report.
- I HAVE to lose more weight this week.
- I HAVE to stop being hungry all the time (and don't tell me to eat, just fuck off if you're going to tell me to eat, I KNOW that). I hate (yet love) how it hurts, right up under my ribs with hunger.
6 weeks until the end of term. If (and I won't) I lost 1.5-2kg per week I'd be going to hospital for easter, not home. That isn't what I want to do. I actually miss home a lot at the moment. I also won't sustain that sort of weightloss. It is a bit like anyone saying 'If I stopped eating, I'd be dead in 4 months'. I look disgusting in all the facebook photos of me.
I want to write to my old doctor but I don't think she'll reply so I dunno.