I feel ill. I also feel a bit shitty mood wise. Partly because stuff about my past is on the verge of being spoken about (by me) and it is freaking me out. I imagine people's responses and then get annoyed at the person even though it is an imagined response.
Also I'm leaving here in 6 days. I can come back after being home for 2 weeks (because the people here are going away for 2 weeks)...I was meant to be moving back to uni, starting to see a psychologist and a nutritionist.
I emailed Claire.
She emailed back basically saying 'erm dunno what is going on I'm going on holiday for 2 weeks I'll speak to Dr C when I get back'.
So the options are kind of come back here (which is by no means the easy option) or stay at home (...) or go back to Nottingham where I have semi-planned an OD and I won't eat.