"I am stuck in this rut of self-loathing and self-destruction, and my wish to be thin has somehow obliterated all other possibilities. It's the part of me that runs counter to my hopes, the part that never wanted to grow up. And now I've grown, so that part of me is determined to destroy me." Rowan- wishinawell.blogspot.co.uk/
8.5% over my 'safe amount'.
Can't follow the plan I've written, can't show it to T or F or any of the volunteers. I.e. I can't show it to the people who could help me whilst I have them.